C.S. Lewis used the time after his wife's death to write A Grief Observed. It isn't one of my favorites of his, but it's pretty good—and "pretty good" for him is "astoundingly wonderful" for anybody else, in my book.
But I'm not C.S. Lewis. (Shocker, huh?) I feel numb, and I have trouble using my words, which is a strange thing for me. I just feel numb. Tired, too, and maybe a bit sick, as if I have a cold that stuffs up my head with cotton, hay, and rags, as are women's heads in Professor Henry Higgins's world.
O come, O come, Emmanuel? Who's that? What could come to this fog? Why is everybody else putting lights up when there will never be any more light, ever? How can everybody outside my family be excited about something that will never be the same for the rest of my life?
How can I sing the Lord's song in a foreign land?
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It was so good to have you over for dinner last night, and reading this now I am even more glad that I asked. You take all the time you need to grieve, but I know that you will sing again. It will be a slightly different song, but it will be your song, and it will be wonderful! {{{{{hugs}}}}}
Thank you so much for having us! Your family is so sweet. And I was glad to spend some time with Ken, whom I rarely hear, what with generally seeing him only in church.
I have ups and downs. They're rather extreme lately, but they'll even out eventually. Thanks again!
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